A pickle person

Dear Baby,

We've made it to 22 weeks now, a little past halfway. You're starting to take up most of the room and I'm starting to feel a little cramped :)

I wouldn't say that I have had any really strange cravings until last night. I pulled out a jar of pickles and a tray of chocolate cookies. I'd eat a slice of pickle, and then a bite of cookie. It sounds gross I know. But baby, I was in heaven.

There are a million things you HATE for me to eat. Like tacos, milk, yogurt (pretty much anything dairy related really). You don't like when I eat salad, or most kinds of chips or really anything greasy. It's getting hard to find things that you DO like to eat. So I'm sticking with my pickles and chocolate cookies okay?

Love,
Mama

Just the 3 of us

Dear Baby:

I am 21 weeks pregnant, and this is what you look like inside me. It has been a crazy few weeks as we have been focusing on your brothers. So this last weekend your daddy and me got to have a weekend getaway, and just enjoy you. We sat by the ocean, which baby you are going to love one day, and spent time together being quiet.

But the highlight of the weekend for me was the night that we laid in bed and listened to the sound of the waves crashing on the beach. You responded by moving around all over the place. And your daddy got to feel you moving around. He smiled and would say "ooooh she's hyper". It was a really special moment we got to share, just focusing on you and your little life growing inside me.

Your daddy keeps wondering what life will be like with a little girl. I secretly think he's really excited about. He keeps thinking about your prom, and your wedding. He asks me about what girls like to do. He speculates that you will be a talker and will have to be tough with 2 older brothers.

It's so fun to think about what life will be like when you come. We are excited baby.

We love you baby,

Love mama

Peekaboo- I see you!

Dear Baby:

Today we saw you in action. We saw your tiny feet kick around. We saw your arms stretch. We saw you move your lips, and flip around. We saw your heart beat, and heard it whirring around in my belly. We got to know you, this little life we've prayed over, thought about, planned for, and loved.

We got you on videotape, and we finally got your first pictures. What a moment, what a day. Today is the day that we found out that you are, in fact, a little girl!

My dear sweet little baby, I cannot tell you how long I have drempt of this day. I can now tell you that ever since you were teeny tiny I have had the idea that you were a girl. It is a thing that I have had with all my babies, knowing what they were from the time they were too itty bitty to even tell. Both of your brothers, I knew they were boys. And you my love, I knew would be a girl. But being able to finally see it on the screen, was amazing.

I ran to the store and bought pink bows for your hair, and pink bibs for you to wear. I am afraid my dear, that in a house full of boys, you are going to be ever-so-covered in pink from head to toe and there is really nothing you can do about it. I have drempt of my girl, prayed for my girl, hoped for my girl, and cried for my girl for a very long time. I thought about all the birthday parties, and girl movies, and sleepovers, and makeovers, and your prom, and your wedding. I cannot tell you how delighted I am to add you to our family, to make it complete.

We got to see every part of you today my sweet sweet baby. And I feel like I got to know you a little bit more, other than just the foods you like and don't like. I am so blessed to have this day, I will really never ever forget it.

Love,

Mama

The Sun will come out, Tomorrow

Dear Baby,

Tomorrow is the day we find out if you are a boy or a girl. It's also the day we look at your little squirmy body for the first time. I am so excited to see you, to get to know you, to watch you. We are also eager with anticipation over what you will be. We all have our guesses, but we're mostly just excited to see you swimming around in me.

Can't wait to see you baby.

See you tomorrow!

Love, Mama

A sonogram dream

Dear Baby,

Being pregnant with you makes me have very strange dreams. Last night was no exception. I drempt that while pregnant with you, a woman having twins wanted us to adopt them. We were skeptical about the adoption but wanted more information.

So we all went into the sonogram room and were waiting to see if our babies were boys or girls. She went first, and learned she was having twin girls. Then we went in and found out we were having a boy. We realized that we loved you so much that we didn't want those other babies, we just wanted you.

I just wanted you to know, that no matter what we find out you are, I wouldn't trade you for all the girls people could throw at me....not even in my dreams.

Love,
Mama

The Black Plague

Dear Baby,

I love you.

Do you know how I know ? Because you have made me throw up 11 times today (yes I counted) and I still love you. You will not let me keep any kind of food down. There is nothing all day or all night that you will accept and be at peace with eating, but still I love you.

One day when you're a teenager you might just be mad at me and question my love for you. When you do, I would like to direct you to this blog so you can see beyond a doubt that though you plague my body and though I am absolutely miserable it's because.... I love you.

Love, Mama

My little Beckham

Dear Baby,

I am almost 13 weeks pregnant with you and am so happy I am leaving the danger zone of pregnancy. Though you are just a tiny little thing, you have been making your presence known more and more. I started feeling your tiny kicks last week. At first, I thought I was being ridiculous, I mean how could I feel you kick when you are so small? But as the week has progressed, you are such a mover and shaker that I know for SURE that it's you kicking me in there. You've also been kicking my bladder a lot, I cannot believe how fast I am noticing this time.

You are full of energy but I can't help but smile everytime I feel your tiny nudge. Baby it is a feeling like no other feeling on earth. To feel that tiny kick inside your body, is really indescribably happy. Even when I'm NOT pregnant, I often feel phantom kicks and it almost makes me sad. So this time, I am going to treasure every kick, every movement. It is such a wonderful feeling and a way to get to know you better, even though I can't snuggle with you.

I love you so much baby.
Love,
Mama