The Halloween Baby

Dear Baby,

Today they told me your scheduled C-section is for October 26th. I about fell over. That seems like an eternity. I know it's only 3 weeks away, but seriously 3 weeks? I am thinking about what your birthdays will be like. I'm thinking about all the fall-themed fun we can have throwing your birthday parties. You can have caramel apples and candy corn cupcakes. But I am really hoping that you come just a little bit earlier, because I don't want you to have a Halloween themed birthday every year. I guess I just feel like it takes away from your special day. I know I really don't have control over that. Truth be told, it has a lot to do with the fact that my doctor is going on vacation for 3 weeks and this is when she will get around to doing it.

It's hard to think that your birthdays for the whole rest of your life will be determined based on the fact that my doctor went to Hawaii. It kind of, perturbs me. Hopefully, if you're anything like what I think you're like, you are going to make your grand entrance on a day when nobody expects. I have this sneaking suspicion that you are going to have to be original, not just ANY day will do. It will have to be the day when YOU want to come. Truthfully, I am HOPING you'll be a diva like that.

But until then, I am enjoying the cool fall breeze and the view of leaves changing. I'm thinking about all the pumpkins we will carve and the hayrides we will be on together. Baby doll, my little "pumpkin" I am so thrilled that you are an October baby!

Love,
Mama

Checkup number.... oh I've lost count

Dear Baby,

Today I went to another doctor appointment. I have to get my glucose test pretty soon. I don't know why everyone I talk to always complains about the drink you have to drink, I hate the needle and drawing blood part.

Today I heard your heart again, felt you move, and then they measured me. To my doctor's astonishment my tummy is measuring 2 weeks early. This is the same thing that happened to me when I was pregnant with Noah. At my 36 week checkup with him, I measured 40 weeks. The doctor said "oh you're going to have a big baby." I didn't, instead I went into labor the next day.

I am 26 weeks pregnant now, and I am measuring at 28 weeks. If that is correct, than your due date is not going to be October 28th. I'm thinking, at least the 14th or 15th by what I am measuring now. I can't wait to see what I'm measuring in 3 weeks. I am curious what that will tell us about when you'll decide to show up. It's kinda fun having a built in system that gives me a heads-up early to be prepared and pack my hospital bag.

But for now, I am still busy getting your room ready, and planning your baby shower, and preparing for my baby girl.

Love,
Mama

The Sun will come out, Tomorrow

Dear Baby,

Tomorrow is the day we find out if you are a boy or a girl. It's also the day we look at your little squirmy body for the first time. I am so excited to see you, to get to know you, to watch you. We are also eager with anticipation over what you will be. We all have our guesses, but we're mostly just excited to see you swimming around in me.

Can't wait to see you baby.

See you tomorrow!

Love, Mama

A Healthy Heart

Dear Baby,

Well, it's official.... you're real. If the cramping and lower back pain didn't tell me, or the frequent nausea or the constant dizzy spells, the picture I hold in my hands today does.

I got my first sonogram today, I saw the very first picture of you. I was relieved to hear that you were healthy, and that you weren't twins! I also saw the fluttering of your tiny heartbeat. It was a great feeling being able to see your little life inside me.

I have prayed furiously for protection around my womb and for your health and safety as I have really been feeling quite awful the last few weeks. It has worried me. But it was so nice to see that you were safe and thriving, swimming away in my belly.

Here's your first picture baby, and you are gorgeous!

I love you baby.

Love,

Mama